Who am I trying to impress?

I was told I need to write more entries about my life. So, here is what my hands are telling me to say.

I try to lead an interesting life, I don't like to waste moments and/or my time with friends. This causes me to always be on the go, even when I'm sitting down. However, my days are numbered. I am a wanted man. Life is nipping at my gluts and I will have to grow up uncomfortably soon. It's time though, I'm ready for an upgrade. I just hope some of my current lifestyle will transfer over to the next stage. I don't want to lose anyone, especially you.

Lately, I have been felt stretched thin. All the different roles in my life have demanded my attention, causing me to lose sleep, and this isn't okay. I love my sleep, it's almost important to me as a Monte Cristo. I may be a glutton, but I promise it all goes to good use! Back on topic, this stress is making me feel selfish for doing what I want to do. I feel like I can't piss without pissing off someone.

To be completely honest, I've been going through somewhat of an identity crisis for the past month. I don't know what I enjoy to do anymore, I don't know where I begin and my friends end. Am I just a culmination of each good quality of my friends and family? My mom did say I'm like each other my brothers. Does that mean I'm a sponge with no originality? It's been hard for me to understand myself and what makes me tick. I don't know what's brought this self doubt on, but it's there and hard to shake. That doesn't mean I'm down on myself, I'm just trying to rediscover who I am and who I want to be. 

Things aren't gray though. The sun was out this weekend, causing me to find outdoor refuge from my different priorities. There's nothing like splashing, kayaking and eating tacos from a taco trunk to define your weekend.

In summation, a warm body would be nice.